Shit, I remember at one point I found her on Facebook years later out of curiosity, and she’s into that whole fixing the bad boy thing.Or how some lacrosse girl in sophomore year started flirting with me and when I just kind of gave her the cold shoulder, she brazenly asked for my number.
But after she broke up with him, she went out with an insufferable goth kid asshole for years, way longer than the previous two, the type of troublemaker who somehow drew a penis using a pencil on a stainless steel stool and flunked most of his classes while she was a perfect straight A student.And whenever I saw how comfy and happy these girls were around these scumbags, all I could feel was contempt for them. But the fact that you don’t see whatever it is that see doesn’t mean that it doesn’t exist.They looked just as sleazy as these dudes, it was like hearing a public figure you support did or said something really asinine. You’re making a whole lot of judgements based on your ideas of who these people are without actually seeing them together.but then I simply resigned myself to maybe this talk of nice guys being shafted is correct.After all, I was never a Casanova of any kind, and maybe this is what I need to do.I was taken a bit aback not just by her interest but how she seemed to be demanding it, and didn’t give it to her just because it made me uncomfortable.
Instead she gave me her number and pretty much demanded this time that I call her that night. This wasn’t ignoring boundaries, this was someone who was into you and telling you – in pretty much no uncertain terms – that she wanted to invite you over for a hot cup of “fuck my brains out”. Little did I know that people were taking this as a challenge or whatever, and were not sincerely listening to me when I told them I wanted them to fuck off.
I recalled how a similar field hockey star and straight A student dated a loser type for years, someone who couldn’t even spell cynical.
Thus far, we still are at the point of my shrugging my shoulders and saying “… ” Because all we have is that don’t like these dudes.
I’m going to point out something you literally just said: .
This same goth kid was the type who would tell the black kids they needed to be lynched to their faces, and would “joke” about anti-Semitism around actual Jewish kids around him.
Nope, turns out they were perfectly on the up and up with everybody else and genuinely hot for me, but not for the reasons I ever would have wanted. Now back then I was so fucking depressed and messed up in the head that I knew I was not ready for any sort of relationship.